Life is only as complicated as we make it. From what medium, James Van Praagh mentions, is that this is all one great big classroom where we all learn lessons. I think we all learn lessons every day. We as humans thirst for knowledge, validation and acceptance.
Life can also be easy-depending on how we deal with the events that take place. Dealing with change is a way of testing us. It tests our emotions, strength, heart, soul and spirit. Changes can make us stronger or sometimes- make us feel weaker. Although-we must not let anything take charge of us- Only WE are in charge of our own lives.
I have to keep reminding myself of this almost daily. The changes I have endured over the year hasn’t been easy. I question my decisions almost daily. It was a rough time after watching a movie in which I identified with some of the major characters. I almost second guessed a major decision in my life- it totally touched my heart ….It was a rough night of sleep too…. But then I have to remember why I made that decision…. It wasn’t an easy one and I tried so hard for over 12 years to make a relationship work. Sometimes, it still haunts me… I am not one to give up. But I have to remember, (and I hope), I did everything for the best. (and also what was best for my daughter).
There are too many times that I spend pondering-and perhaps that isn’t always the most healthy thing to do. But often after watching or reading something that I identify with, it can be very hard to ignore…
I guess I should take some advice, and sometimes- just go with it-instead of thinking about things too hard… I am not a person who likes to always be in the moment- I like to plan things…But I have had a few people around me, who enjoy being in the moment. I was told by a friend, “We aren’t promised tomorrow…” and that is very true…. I try to remember that statement, take a breath, and try to handle each second that I live…. Then sometimes, it gets easier. I will try to quit second-guessing everything…
Ariana R. Cherry: Poet & Artist 