Starting something new….Fixing…broken?

PAUSE

After the Illinois budget hadn’t been passed for several weeks, I was laid off from a job I’d faithfully had for 12 years. I was laid off for a month. During that month, I applied for a job as an Administrative Aid at a nearby church….Although I did get called back to my job, I was offered the admin aid job to my surprise…I took that position and am happy about the decision I made…While it was sad to leave after 12 years, I couldn’t risk being laid off again as the IL gov still has not passed a budget……I enjoy working with churches, meeting people and learning new things…….After the year year I’ve had, a new start is what I needed anyway……A fresh beginning for whatever my life has yet to offer….

As I start something new, I did leave something behind almost a year ago. It was something that hurt my heart, spirit and soul…..It took so much of my energy trying to make it work. There are times, I still feel unsure about what I did but I am only human and we all our doubts about the decisions that we make. I’ve heard the saying, “when one door closes, another one opens.” I seem to find that saying true, as there have been a few multiple doors that have opened as others have closed. My life has been an interesting ride- and it isn’t over yet – and I hope the road still continues on.

When things happen in your life and you live in a small town -sometimes- people talk. Or you might get lucky, and they say things straight to your face. Sometimes that can be good – other times, it can be bad. What I don’t like – is being judged… And that I was. Judged by a person from a place I had been attending since I was a child- I won’t name the place, for privacy reasons, but let’s call it, a house of “God.” … I am beginning to think that some of these “houses of God,” carry more judgement than the outside world sometimes…. I was told I needed to fix something that was broken. I made a choice to leave a relationship – so – it wasn’t broken. It definitely had its mishaps as the years went on…

But if I made a choice to leave something that was hurting me – then – it wasn’t broken. Nothing needs repaired-well perhaps my heart… But, other than that, I only wish that people would keep their opinions to themselves… There is an old saying… “If you don’t have anything nice to say – don’t say anything at all.” And that saying will ring true- no matter what decade or century….

I am not broken. I am just growing. Nothing needs glued back together… perhaps some revamping…But I ..am not a broken person. In some ways, I am just beginning…on whatever this path is that God has laid out for me…

Published by Ariana R. Cherry

“Within the depths of our mind, we are battling the duel of light and darkness…good and evil…love and hate…” Between Light and Darkness is Ariana’s most recent collection of poetry… Cherry’s frequent message she delivers throughout her work is, “The journey through the darkness, back into the light.” Her hope is to let others know that they won’t be in that place of darkness for long – that they indeed can reach the light once again…She also wants her readers to know – that – it is okay if they find themselves in that bleak blackness…Sometimes we feel guilty for going to that dark place – but it is necessary to conquer the demons that battle our souls…. Other books that Cherry has written include "Only If" and "Twisted Paths Poetry." Her epic tale, “Only If,” won the “Reader’s Favorite Award” and a 5 star review…and her collection, “Twisted Paths Poetry,” received a 5 star review from Realistic Poetry International. She has been writing ever since she was a child. Some of her inspirations include Edgar Allen Poe, Robert Frost, Stephen King, Emily Dickinson, Christopher Pike and Shel Silverstein. Ariana writes a variety of genres: inspirational, humorous and horror – although writing horror is one of her favorites…. She was 12 years old when she read Poe for the very first time – which inspired her epic poetry tale, “Only If.“ During other parts of her free time, she enjoys taking photos and creating art. Her “day-jobs” include working as a church administrative aide and reporting for a local newspaper.

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