Life on Pause: Still Standing


It’s been pretty much a year since my life took a drastic turn and everything I pretty much ever knew got a total overhaul. I know I have mentioned that already before, but this month, November, will make it a year…

Sometimes, I feel like I could be just waking up again, and perhaps I was asleep or in some cloud the last few years… I was literally just going with the flow and felt my life was pretty much stuck and not going anywhere…I was put down a  lot and constantly getting yelled at or reprimanded by someone  who was supposed to have loved me- I was constantly stressed out… I think I got so used to it, that I almost became numb, and stopped feeling anything.

And lately, I’ve felt more awake… Like I am coming back or I had been asleep…I’ve began to feel more and become more comfortable at sharing my thoughts and opinions…without the fear of being argued with…

It’s an interesting feeling when you are waking up… You feel slightly different, and all of the past, seems like, lifetimes ago… My life is a little less stressed, and I am actually, a bit more happier… Although, if you would have told me a year ago – that I would be in the place I am now- I wouldn’t have believed you- I never realized that I had the strength, that is in me today…

While everything isn’t totally fixed yet, I am getting better little by little every day. I just take each day , one day at a time, and try my best to live in the moment. I am thankful for everything that I have been given so far…

I could have ended up angry, sad or depressed- but I chose to fight and stay strong…. and try to stand on my own two feet…. So far – I am still standing. I hope the next year – brings many great things.


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