Contemplating Life, Mind rantings

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Thou-est …you do think too much…”

“If you spend too much time thinking about the future..or the end – then you never will have really lived…

-The first phrase – I could see someone saying aloud to me – I often hear it in my mind. The second phrase – was told to me by my therapist. And she’s right. I need to learn to be in the present…

My mind drifts into a million places all the time. If I have a task to focus on in a given moment – I’m there. I’m all about that task and accomplishing it. But if you leave me alone for just a few minutes …. You are going to have to pull me off of my thought cloud.

I am always contemplating life and the future…and even – sometimes the end. I am usually thinking about when and how I am going to finish my book projects, art projects, what I will photograph next…what my daughter will be doing after she graduates…what type of guy will she end up with, what will her wedding be like…. what will being a grandmother be like (hope it doesn’t happen anytime soon!), where will I be living in 5, 10, 15 years—will I be here in 15 years?…..and then I find myself asking….when will I leave this world? …what will eternity be like?…. Can I fathom eternity? Do I want to live in an eternity?…what is the afterlife?… My mind just goes…and goes…..It is kind of scary in a way…that a person who enjoys life as much as I do ….am fascinated with …things like the afterlife…But my mind just twists it into these conceptions – which I believe is probably my imagination on over-drive…

Sometimes…I just get frustrated…Can’t I just park myself in the present and enjoy the moment?… Now – stick me with a sunrise…sunset, the moon or stars – and I am there…I am in THE MOMENT….Nature grounds me in the moment….But if I am stuck in doors, I just love to travel with my thoughts….I can actually travel down the rabbit hole when it comes to contemplating eternity … I am sure as humans – we can’t fathom that kind of time…We can’t grasp the concept of eternity – honestly – eternity frightens me….It reminds you of some of those movies where they rant mysteriously – or frighteningly – “forever…and ever…and ever…and ever…”

Why write this blog post? ranting about the rantings of my mind? I am curious if there are others who think just as much as I do? …or if I am just the odd one out here  ? … Does anyone ever find themselves falling down the rabbit hole of endless mind rantings?…Does anyone else wonder about eternity…?…the after-life?…Or has my horror writing finally all caught up with me?…I just know…there may be one day – I will need some really long rope to pull me out of my rabbit hole…

 

Published by Ariana R. Cherry

“Within the depths of our mind, we are battling the duel of light and darkness…good and evil…love and hate…” Between Light and Darkness is Ariana’s most recent collection of poetry… Cherry’s frequent message she delivers throughout her work is, “The journey through the darkness, back into the light.” Her hope is to let others know that they won’t be in that place of darkness for long – that they indeed can reach the light once again…She also wants her readers to know – that – it is okay if they find themselves in that bleak blackness…Sometimes we feel guilty for going to that dark place – but it is necessary to conquer the demons that battle our souls…. Other books that Cherry has written include "Only If" and "Twisted Paths Poetry." Her epic tale, “Only If,” won the “Reader’s Favorite Award” and a 5 star review…and her collection, “Twisted Paths Poetry,” received a 5 star review from Realistic Poetry International. She has been writing ever since she was a child. Some of her inspirations include Edgar Allen Poe, Robert Frost, Stephen King, Emily Dickinson, Christopher Pike and Shel Silverstein. Ariana writes a variety of genres: inspirational, humorous and horror – although writing horror is one of her favorites…. She was 12 years old when she read Poe for the very first time – which inspired her epic poetry tale, “Only If.“ During other parts of her free time, she enjoys taking photos and creating art. Her “day-jobs” include working as a church administrative aide and reporting for a local newspaper.

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