Changing of Seasons

Within the last year or two, I’ve been closely “monitoring” nature…. and its seasons – as well as the “seasons” within my life…

But first, we’ll take a look at nature…

Have you ever wandered down the sidewalks and streets… or through the parks – and felt the air…and really listened to it? You can “hear” the change of pressure… feel the change of temperature…and just that change that is coming… During the winter, I felt the coldness and emptiness of winter – yet, the warmth blanket of snow that fell ever so lightly – I felt its joy spread over that cloud of darkness from the freeze…

When spring finally came along – I felt the crispness of the air – the excitement of new life… and what’s to come….

Summer – always splashes in way too fast… The air is relaxed even if the heat is humid and sticky… The humidity gives you that reason to slow your pace. The air in the summer feels relaxed … and stagnant.

And then fall approaches. (Just as it will be nearing soon) and I sense change… I feel the air changing its direction… While the squirrels are still scurrying about – they will soon become more hurried, storing up for the winter. But in this air – there’s a bit of uncertainty – as change slowly scents the air… The leaves will change color… and the cool breezes will bring chills during those evening walks….

But not only am I sensing a change of season just for weather…but I notice it as I grow older. The evolution of each year is like a revolving circle. It makes its path at the top and circles through every season, repeating the cycle…round….and round.

I may be shy 3 years of forty – but…. in my “old-soul wisdom,” I already feel like I’ve been through so many of these cycles. But growing older, I begin to use my senses more – witnessing the change in the environment around me…

My daughter is growing up, my parents continue to get older as well as the rest of my family … and I am aging too… But I don’t feel that I can keep up… For my heart still yearns for youth, but my mind is wise beyond its years – as well as my soul too…. I’ve journeyed through paths in life that have “aged” me … but… I feel those experiences have taught me so much…

…and yet again…as I journey through more changes, I find that my heart aches… Changes don’t come easy… We learn  a lot about others – but yet- so much more about ourselves and how we battle through those lessons that we are given….

I ache when I feel the change in the air….but even though I may ache – I also have wonder and excitement…. Sometimes I yearn to relive past experiences…. to feel the joy of those scenes or to fill a loved one’s embrace from a hug who has passed…

…Tonight once again… I ache…from change…but sometimes, we must journey through those changes to grow… Life is about joy, sorrow, love, change and lessons learned… We are here in this huge classroom – this gift of life… that have so many questions in which we are constantly seeking answers…

We seek truth – through life experiences….and truth – from people whom we have known – or even thought we knew….

…and sometimes… I just have to take a breath….step outdoors, and listen to the air around me…. Listen to the voices within my heart… and continue, circling this evolution that carry these seasons of life… and if a tear or two is shed… I know that those too will dry… and be lessons learned in this life…