…Trying to live in an “insensitive world”

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Please forgive me for this post..but I need to vent and release some emotions… You may continue to read if you wish… But it isn’t necessarily a happy post….. And if you do stick around to read…thank you for “listening…”

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I know when we were young, our grandparents often told us how different the world was growing up….And how much everything has changed…. I’m not even a grandparent and I can see those changes already….

As I get older, it is so hard to live in a world that is becoming increasingly… insensitive….Or it could just be, that I may just be… a sensitive person with too much compassion and emotion…. It hurts to care so much sometimes.

….When I begin to form and build relationships, I put everything I have into them and become emotionally invested… And perhaps – that is my own mistake…. But sometimes I care so much for people, that my heart hurts….And that is what makes it hard to live in a world that can be insensitive. I am not saying that everybody is careless or selfish, but a large portion of society has become selfish – only looking out for their own personal needs and how to get ahead…

Also as I get older, I learn that I need to be more careful to who I trust…. I need to be more careful to who I open up too…. Because – if I no longer meet that person’s needs or requirements – They easily throw me off to the side like yesterday’s garbage… And then – I am left with a heart that feels like its been stomped on a million times…. Kind of like how I feel right now…  For almost a week now, I have been unable to lift this huge brick off of my heart….

I invested a year of my personal time to an individual whom I thought was my friend…and basically, I am just finding out that none of it mattered…. I was only used for their own personal gain … Just a number in their business…. Yet- they pretended to care about me, share stories with me and act as if they were a mentor…. I shared personal things that I don’t share with everyone…and now, I am sitting here, feeling used and a like a really huge idiot…. “Stupid me for caring so much...’

Sometimes, people forget -we are humans…and people with emotions…. and the things that are said and done to us – can effect us deeply… But those who are insensitive – seem to be numb….

It is a hard lesson to learn – you can’t trust everybody and you must guard your heart and soul with the most utmost protection…..

I really don’t want to become a cynical person…. But.. it is becoming so increasingly hard not to be…. It is becoming so difficult to live in world that is insensitive…

I guess…the only thing I can do …is pray for those – who seem to have lost their hearts.

 

 

Published by Ariana R. Cherry

“Within the depths of our mind, we are battling the duel of light and darkness…good and evil…love and hate…” Between Light and Darkness is Ariana’s most recent collection of poetry… Cherry’s frequent message she delivers throughout her work is, “The journey through the darkness, back into the light.” Her hope is to let others know that they won’t be in that place of darkness for long – that they indeed can reach the light once again…She also wants her readers to know – that – it is okay if they find themselves in that bleak blackness…Sometimes we feel guilty for going to that dark place – but it is necessary to conquer the demons that battle our souls…. Other books that Cherry has written include "Only If" and "Twisted Paths Poetry." Her epic tale, “Only If,” won the “Reader’s Favorite Award” and a 5 star review…and her collection, “Twisted Paths Poetry,” received a 5 star review from Realistic Poetry International. She has been writing ever since she was a child. Some of her inspirations include Edgar Allen Poe, Robert Frost, Stephen King, Emily Dickinson, Christopher Pike and Shel Silverstein. Ariana writes a variety of genres: inspirational, humorous and horror – although writing horror is one of her favorites…. She was 12 years old when she read Poe for the very first time – which inspired her epic poetry tale, “Only If.“ During other parts of her free time, she enjoys taking photos and creating art. Her “day-jobs” include working as a church administrative aide and reporting for a local newspaper.

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